Saturday, May 28, 2011

Yes, I'm eating. I am so sick of people asking me if I'm eating, or eating wisely.  I guess it is a touchy subject. I'm not able to eat a lot, and I make sure that what I CAN eat is healthy, protein rich foods. I don't eat crap. Period.

As much as I would love a slice of pizza. I just don't. It doesn't agree with me anymore anyways. Breads, burgers, all the old foods I loved are a thing of the past.

So, I saw my doctor yesterday for dizziness. I blacked out last Wednesday. I landed on my face. I chipped my front tooth, and had a nice little shiner. The verdict--dehydration. Since I saw my Doctor on April 15th, I have lost 28 pounds. He was concerned. I'm always toting around a bottle of gatorade and drinking water.

I don't get it.

I'm never hungry, and I'm forcing myself to eat. I pretty much stick to tuna salad, chicken salad, with a few bran crackers, yogurt, or soups to get the majority of my nutrition. I can eat other solids, but it takes so long to eat, that I don't feel as I'm getting enough in. I'm not sure if that makes sense.

I feel good though, and I'm losing pretty steadily. I don't feel tired or sickly. I am just so fed up about people asking me if I'm eating enough. There is a little waif I work with and she eats less than I do, and no one ever questions her.

Sorry to vent, but it has been bugging me.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

A summary of the last week of hell

Yay! School is out for summer. Grades came back with an A in Biochem and an A- in Anatomy and Physiology.

So I mentioned that my wallet was stolen over a week ago. Everything was replaced, and I was able to salvage my vacation. I left a day later, but I still had fun.

My cousin and I went to the casino on Friday night, and didn't have much luck. The weather was rainy pretty much the whole time we were there. Saturday, he had an appointment in Uptown, so I tagged along. I found a small little coffee shop and grabbed myself an iced drink while sitting outside in the sunshine. It was nice. I enjoyed the people watching.

Later on that night, Joe and I took a drive downtown. We went out to Burnsville and watched the planes fly overhead.  It was getting chilly so we headed back to his place. Since we were up so early, we were both pretty tired, and called it an early night.

Around midnight I was woken up by severe thunderstorms. I was scared that I would have bad hail damage on my car like Joe did a few weeks earlier. The storms settled down, and I drifted off to sleep.

Sunday rolled around, and the weather was still pretty bad.  We loafed around Joe's condo debating on what to do today. My plans for the zoo were out of the question.  We decided to head out to the mall. I think we were both in such a funk from the weather, that neither of us were really into shopping. We stopped in Marshalls, and Joe got some chocolate at Godiva. (I didn't) and then we decided to leave to rent some movies.

After returning to Joe's house, we noticed that there were police everywhere blocking all of the entrances to the road and the surrounding neighborhood roads to access his condo. We stopped and asked the policeman what happened, and he had said a TORNADO had touched down.  Everything went into a big blur as we looked around and saw all of the debris laying all over, and the roof of the Nestle corporation building was partly missing.  We parked the car. Joe bolted from the car and ran towards his condo. The skies were pouring rain. I stayed put, scared. I texted a friend who told me not to worry and toughen up. I called Joe's mom who said that she had talked to him and a giant tree had crashed through his living room. He was in his condo and that the ceiling was about to collapse. No one knew he was inside.

I hung up with her and was about to run out into the rain, when Joe was making his way back. It was bad. The whole roof of his condo had collapsed from the giant tree. There was no warning, no sirens, nothing. We must have missed the tornado by minutes. Where my air mattress laid in his living room, with my laptop and digital camera on top, is where the tree penetrated. All my belongings were saturated. My suitcase was wet and my clothes were covered with insulation. I'm glad we were not there when it happened and I am glad we are alive. Joe will be out of a place to live for the next 2 months or so, but insurance will cover it. His mom came up that night and put us up in a hotel and helped Joe figure out a game plan. We were tired, hungry and wet, and smelly. We did so much walking that day and in the rain. I was out cold, once my head hit the pillow

I decided to leave on Monday afternoon as I felt like a fifth wheel, and head home a day early. There was a lot of business to take care of, and I just felt in the way. The six hour drive home was uneventful. Glad to be home and relax, for sure.

I had mentioned in a few posts back that I have been getting dizzy lately. Well, I had my first scary episode on Tuesday. I had eaten breakfast, and I was sipping on gatorade as I usually do, and I started feeling light headed, then started sweating. Next thing you know, I'm on the floor, but it felt like I was just waking up from a nap. I had blacked out. I don't even remember going down. My face broke my fall. My lip is busted up, and my front tooth is chipped. My cheekbone and eye socket on the left side are all black and blue.  Granted I can't eat a lot at once, but I am eating. I don't eat fast food, or junk. I get my protein in and always make sure I get my water in, but I think this may have been some low blood sugar. I have a follow up appointment with the doctor scheduled.

So, now today is back to work, off tomorrow, and then another 4 day stretch over the weekend.  It certainly has been the most memorable vacation of my life!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

New Blogger, needs support!

My real life friend is in the process of being banded and could use some support!
Melissa's Weight loss Journey

Weigh-in Wednesday (Week 19 Post-op)

Last week: 287.0
This week 283.2 (Plus I was on vacation) I will take it!

So much to blog about, but I'm tired and it has been a long day! Will update soon!

Saturday, May 21, 2011


Well, I made it to Minneapolis, and I'm having a great time with my cousin. I'm a little concerned because I noticed yesterday, that when going from sitting to standing or laying down to standing, I have been getting dizzy. It hasn't been to the point where I feel like I am going to black out or anything, but I am concerned. I can't eat a lot, but I am making sure that I am eating and drinking to keep my blood sugar up and making sure I get my protein in.

Anyone else experience this or have any advice? I'm almost wondering if my blood pressure is low.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Weigh-in Wednesday (Week 18 Post-op)


That is a 10 pound loss for this week.

What did I do to lose 10 pounds this week?
#1 Time of month is over--big factor
#2 Stuck to 3 small meals each day this week.
#3 Drank adequate amounts of water
#4 Stayed active, and stayed away from boredom triggers!

Hope you have a great weight loss week too!

Thursday, May 12, 2011

It's fun being picky!

I did some dreaded clothes shopping today. I literally did not have 5 outfits to wear for my trip, and since I got another gift card from my cousin, and and $10 off certificate, I headed over to Kohls.

Being the bargain hunter I am, I went over to the clearance racks. I found three stylish pairs of jeans, picked them up, and grabbed a pair of capris.  The jeans fit. They were 24w, and I loved them all! Being in a size 24 is blowing my mind. It was less than 6 months ago and I was in 32's, granted they weren't tight, but still!

It was fun to be picky. I didn't just purchase the items because I could squeeze into them. I had selection and choices, and that felt great, and they made my Badonka-donk look good!

Less than a week until vacation and school is out for the summer. I can't wait!

Also, my dear cousin and I are going to try to hold each other accountable for weight loss each week by taking photos of our weigh-in number and recording it on a spreadsheet. Other than logging my weight in on myfitnesspal, I couldn't tell you how much I have lost each week, and I really want to start keeping track.

Lastly, I am waiting for some nice weather. I have this beautiful mountain bike, and it has been raining! Ugh!

Praying for some nice weather soon!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Inspirational Thanks and a New NSV

My lap-band is everything I hoped for. I really was totally prepared and had realistic expectations prior to surgery. I knew my food intake would be restricted by my brain and lips would not be. I had Googled lap-band blogs and came across Amy W.'s, and soon was swept away into her life like characters in a great novel. I laughed. I cried. I cheered her on! (I totally think her life, would be a great movie, don't you?) I loved that she was/is so honest and helpful, and here is a happy girl who was still happy at her highest weight, and here she was over 300 pounds herself and now is below goal, Amazing! Truly an inspiration!

It was through her blog, I found Grace, as a follower, who I was able to read up from almost the time of her surgery, or slightly after. Again over 300 and is now at 215. This blows my mind.

And there are others, many others, but these ladies are the first two blogs I found that I have followed religiously, and I really attribute some of my success to their words of wisdom, so thank you ladies!

Without further adieu, my new NSV....
Around that time of the month, I CRAVE chocolate.  Any other time, I could care less.  Well, I went to TJMaxx yesterday and of course when you check out, they have all the little fancy popcorns and  random doo-dads and fancy little chocolates between the candles and the mp3 player head phones. I bought a bag..err two bags of fancy gourmet chocolate. Prior to my lap-band, I would have eaten the ENTIRE bag. I had a single serving of 3 small pieces for 150 calories. I was satisfied and put it away.

The lap-band has really helped my relationship with food. I don't over indulge anymore, but I treat myself every once in awhile. I make great, healthy choices 99% of the time, and it is working for me. I no longer desire to eat an entire pizza, but I do enjoy having a slice every once in awhile. This is HUGE for me!

With that, time to get back to studying!
Until later,

Weigh-in Wednesday (Week 17 Post-op)

I just realized after I uploaded this pic, that is is Tuesday! Haha oh well!


 I am up like 2/10 of a pound (TOM)  Not sweatin' it!
Yes-I know I have hideous feet!

Happy Wednesday  Tuesday everybody!

Monday, May 9, 2011

Progress pics

The end of the semester is in sight! I have 3 more tests and the last day of school is May 19th. I am headed up to visit my cousin in Minneapolis for a long weekend.  My original goal was to lose 80 pounds and be 299 by the time I saw him.

I am holding steady at about 296.  I am going to make Wednesdays my official weigh-in day.  It's that Time of the Month, so I am expecting a small gain tomorrow.

My husband won me a mountain bike, and we finally got it assembled. I can't wait to take it for a spin.  The weather has been cold and rainy, but when the weather is nice, I'm in class or I'm working.  My cousin told me to bring my bike up with me to Minneapolis, so that we can take some rides. He is on a mission to lose weight himself, and is doing awesomely!

I am in serious need of clothing. Everything is tooo big!  I HATE clothes shopping, but I will have to pick up a few things prior to vacation.

Without further wait, here are some new photos:

The one on the left is at 360. I am 5'11. The one on the right is the day I hit 299!

 I know this shirt is a little snug yet, but I plan on wearing it with a jacket or a sweater. Gotta love back rolls!
These were taken today! I'm down 83 pounds!
My hips are still wide and my lower stomach is pooling into my pants. I hate it. One day I will have plastics on  it, but that is still a long ways away. I'm glad for push-up bras and shapewear for sure!

Friday, May 6, 2011

A quick recap--my background story

Since my previous blog is gone, I will do a quick recap.

August 7th, 2010, I attended a Weight Loss Seminar by Dr. Chua. It was my second time attending, but this time I was serious about following through. My heaviest recorded weight was 379 pounds. At the time of the seminar, I was hovering around 368-374.

I had pre-booked my primary physician's appointment for August 9th. My primary doctor was in total agreement about the band, and filled out all the necessary forms.

Fast forward 3 months of supervised diets, a psych eval, pre-op testing, waiting for approval, the surgery date, and that takes me to January 12th. The day my life changed forever!

The first week post-op, I lost 17 pounds. The "before picture" of me in the Green Bay Packer's sweatshirt was taken 4 days after surgery. I don't have very many before pictures. I weighed about 350 in that photo, give or take. On the day of surgery, I weighed in at 359.9 pounds. The picture on the right is me weighing in at 298 pounds!

How I got to 379 pounds is another story in itself for another day.

I have lost a total of 82 pounds so far as of today's date (62 since surgery 4 months ago). My cholesterol, blood pressure, blood sugar, and all other labs are in normal range.  I am currently weighing in at 297 pounds, and I feel great!

Although my blog was deleted, I hope some of you will rejoin me on my journey!


My blog was accidentally deleted! I cried and cried. I had two google accounts, one was associated with blogger and the other with school. I went to delete the old google account, but instead I deleted the one associated with blogger. UGH :(

I'm starting over.