Friday, July 22, 2011

I'm exercising my right to bare arms!

 hehe...just not in public!
Did a little bit of shopping today! It's always an instant pick-me-up!
My weight has bounced up a few pounds since the unfill, but have been going through the "Ohhh, I can eat that now" phase...Starting to buckle down again and refocus.

I must say, the loose skin fairy has been kind to me...minus my stomach..that's a WHOLE 'nother story, but overall, I'm very pleased with the results! :)

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

I had my Un-fill!

Monday, I had .5cc's added to my band. Today I had .75cc's taken out!

I feel deliriously WONDERFUL right now!

Never, ever, ever, ever think being too tight is the way to go!

It's no fun!

My weigh in at the surgeon's office on Monday was 277, my weigh-in this afternoon with them, was 271!  That's way too much to lose in 2 days!

On another note, My BMI is under 40, so goodbye morbid obesity.

That is all. I think I may go an actually EAT now! :)

Weigh-in Wednesday Week 26 post-op

The scale read 271.2.
A significant drop.

The fill has worked, but it will be short lived. Sometimes in our heart of hearts, we know we are doing the wrong thing, but desperation leads us to stupidity.

I am tight. I am beyond tight. I haven't been able to drink water without gurgling, and forget about foods. I have been sipping tiny amounts of broth through a straw, and it is no fun to live like that, no matter how much weight you lose.

I will be seeing the surgeon today for an unfill. I had .5ccs added, and I'm asking them to take out .75. I honestly believe I was too tight before I had this fill, but yet I opted for another one simply because I haven't been losing weight. After reading about the red zone, I fit into a lot of the things in that category. I was relying on slider foods. Any healthy food, such as a green been would make me slime.

I'm being totally honest here, and I'm sure you all think I'm crazy. My friend helped me realize that I had the lap band to get healthy and how I'm using it, is not good, and I'm changing today, before permanent damage is done.

That is all folks

Monday, July 11, 2011

Fill Day Today

I saw the surgeon's office today for my 6 month post-op appointment. I have lost 41 pounds since my last visit on April 15th. I feel great. I received a small .5cc fill today. I now have a total of 7ccs in my band.

 I have been sipping my water and it's going down fine. Liquids today.

Nothing much else to report. I hate that I'm having problems commenting on blogs. There is so much I would like to say!


Friday, July 8, 2011

A trip down memory lane

Well, my 6-month bandiversary will be here in 4 days. I met with my dietitian today, and she is very pleased with my progress, but we are working on a more scheduled meal plan that will allow me adequate time to eat, and try to add more variety such as fruits and vegetables.

I have an appointment scheduled with my surgeon on Monday for a very very conservative fill. I have been able to eat a lot more and am starting to feel hungry all the time again.

Anyways, as I am waiting for my husband to get home from work, I thought I would snap an updated photo of my surgery incisions. I didn't apply any fancy oils, or do anything but let them heal on their own. Some are darker than others, but I don't think they are bad at all.

This was taken the day of surgery, on January 12, 2011.

This was taken today, July 8, 2011. ( I would give anything to get rid of my "smiley face" as my husband calls it!)

Another one on the day of surgery.

This past weekend, with my husband! :)

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Weigh-in Wednesday Week 25 post-op

The scale is not budging, but it will in time.  Let's see what is new to report..

Well, for starters, a friend of mine decided to clean out her closet, and I received about 8 boxes of clothes. Tons of size XL shirts and size 16/18 jeans. Now, tell me if that isn't motivation to start losing again, or what?

I have decided that I am ready for a small fill again. I haven't had a fill in 3 months, but I am starting to get hungry more frequently. I can eat way more than a cup of food. ( I can eat an entire 10 piece mc donald chicken nugget package, mc flurry, and smoothie) oops..did I say that out problem in a small amount of time.

I'm feeling really badly about my food choices lately and my lack of exercise. I have become lazy with food choices and exercise. I have been eating emotionally.

It's time to get back to basics.

In other news. Today I received a motivational card from my cousin. She sent me a gift card for $100 to Kohls to celebrate every pound I have lost. She is AMAZING! I am so touched. I took a picture of the card and the gift card, and texted it to my friend...not to brag..but to show how touched..and how amazing she is... He replied back. NO COMMENT.

I am fuming! I shouldn't let it get me upset, but it does. Why? Because he is overweight and he exercises regularly (makes poor food choices) but isn't losing weight. According to him, I wake up and breathe and lose a pound no matter what. We just don't see eye to eye on this issue. I took the easy way out. I don't deserve to be looked at as an inspiration because I am not killing myself in the gym to lose this weight. This is all according to him...of offense meant. UGH!

In the beginning, after my 2nd fill, the weight loss just happened with minimal effort. It doesn't work like that anymore. I'm no longer melting but at the same time I'm not doing anything to increase my weight loss either. I feel badly for him, that he can't lose his weight but I'm just ticked off about this.

Anyways, I'm taking this all as fuel for motivation! Time to get back on track. Vacation is over!